[Jean would like to tell Randel to go back to his hometown and be happy with his family while they can, but then he would be just another arrogant officer bullying the poor fellow around. It would be pointless, anyway. Randel has made his decision. Jean doesn't think he has had the chance to make many.
More often than not, things have to run their course.]
[ ...issss he a little in love with her? Yeah, that's not even really a secret, except perhaps to him. And her. Not that either of them would ever act on it. Their duty is the priority for both of them. ]
[ For Jean it was just two names in a long list of fatalities, repeated ad nauseam by the news. Back then, the most important thing was to keep himself together for Lotta. And he has been doing that ever since.]
...Sometimes, appropriateness is overrated.
[If his mom had cared about appropriateness, he wouldn't even be born.]
Besides, shouldn't the lady decide for herself?
[He has the feeling the amazing lieutenant wouldn't mind sharing cake with this specific subordinate.]
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Date: 2017-08-13 07:49 pm (UTC)So you've been keeping secrets from them.
The problem with siblings, though, is that they have a way of seeing through you.
Bakerstreet | Randel
Date: 2017-08-13 08:13 pm (UTC)I was. I'm not anymore. But it's still not-
[ Now he looks up and its shame, yes, but also just pain. ]
I'm still not good enough to be around them. I still have penance to do.
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Date: 2017-08-13 08:30 pm (UTC)[That Randel is no longer keeping it secret, that is. See, he's even eating that cherry tomato, after all.
He leans forward and looks straight in those pained eyes. To Jean, it seems Randel is doing penance enough. Most are these days.]
Still, if you wish to become better, wouldn't they want to help you with that? More than as a reminder...
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Date: 2017-08-13 09:02 pm (UTC)They want to help. But I can't make up for anything there. Here, with my unit, I have a chance.
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Date: 2017-08-13 10:17 pm (UTC)More often than not, things have to run their course.]
How so? I hope your unit has been good to you...
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Date: 2017-08-13 10:20 pm (UTC)Yes, sir. I mean, Jean. But yes.
The lieutenant is... amazing.
[ ...issss he a little in love with her? Yeah, that's not even really a secret, except perhaps to him. And her. Not that either of them would ever act on it. Their duty is the priority for both of them. ]
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Date: 2017-08-13 10:36 pm (UTC)He...he will order cake for both of them now. He has even been a good boy and eaten all his greens. He deserves his cake.]
Ah, I suppose it's not every day that we get to meet amazing lieutenants...
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Date: 2017-08-13 11:04 pm (UTC)[ And that's the fade off of someone unwilling to say something unkind about a superior officer. But given what they've discussed- ]
She doesn't understand all the time. She can't.
[ She'd graduated from the military academy literally on the day the conflict had ended. ]
But she understands enough.
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Date: 2017-08-13 11:28 pm (UTC)It doesn't take much, I think. After my parents died, all I had was my sister and this one bad influence, but I would have been helpless without them.
Still, you and your lieutenant should save some time for cake...or salad. Life is not just army rations, you know.
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Date: 2017-08-14 09:05 pm (UTC)I'm sorry for your loss. And I'm glad you had your sister. Family's important, even if sometimes, it's the one you find.
[ He starts eating his own cake. ]
And I'm sure she has cake. She's nobility, after all.
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Date: 2017-08-15 12:45 am (UTC)[Jean blinks at the mention of nobility. He knows a thing or two about that.]
Even if that's the case, it's not the same if you don't get to eat cake together.
[You know, like a date.]
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Date: 2017-08-15 12:50 am (UTC)[ There are times when he can still smell the flames. Or hear his father crying. Time softens old wounds, but it doesn't erase them. ]
[ ...but then he's ducking his head again. ]
That wouldn't be appropriate.
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Date: 2017-08-15 01:15 am (UTC)[ For Jean it was just two names in a long list of fatalities, repeated ad nauseam by the news. Back then, the most important thing was to keep himself together for Lotta. And he has been doing that ever since.]
...Sometimes, appropriateness is overrated.
[If his mom had cared about appropriateness, he wouldn't even be born.]
Besides, shouldn't the lady decide for herself?
[He has the feeling the amazing lieutenant wouldn't mind sharing cake with this specific subordinate.]